LOVE

I have to say I'm one of the lucky ones.

I have an amazing marriage.

If you have read any of my blogs in the past then I tell bits and pieces of our marriage.

We have had so many difficulties in our short marriage.

We recently went through our third miscarriage. 

This is just one of our current struggles. 

I keep praying and asking God why.

Why do things keep happening to us?

Can we please just get a break?

You see, I want a break from the difficulties and heart ache

but God is growing us through these.

God's plan is always better,

even when we don't see it.

There are a few things that we have gone through that hurt so deeply.

 Most people would want that hurt to disappear. 

Most people would want it to never have happened. 

Most people would've ran.

Not me. 

It hurts to look back.

It's painful.

But..... I wouldn't change it.

God has used our pain to help us to bloom into who he has planned.

Our marriage wouldn't be where it is without that pain.

I now have a husband that is attentive to my needs.

He can tell how I am feeling just by looking at me.

We talk about everything.

He is ALWAYS willing to listen and understand.

But it's deeper than that.

It's like he feels my pain by just looking into my eyes.

We have a connection that God has given to us that wouldn't have been there if we didn't go through this pain together. 

Sometimes I can be difficult. 

I'm emotional.

He just flows smoothly through it with me. 

He encourages me, he guides me and when I'm upset he wraps me up in his arms and holds me.

I don't even think he knew how great of a husband he could be. 

I don't think he knows how great of a husband he is. 

As I was sitting in church last week I was struggling.

I've been struggling a lot lately.

I keep going back and forth on asking God why and knowing that what he has planned will be so much greater. 

I have asked why before and God was right.

This is much more than I could ever have thought.

He has blessed us in ways that I couldn't imagine. 

So as we are in this difficult time,

I'm held together by LOVE.

LOVE of God.

LOVE of my Husband.

LOVE of my Children.

LOVE of my Family.

LOVE of my Friends 

and 

LOVE of my Church Family. 

And we will always have that LOVE.

God has an amazing plan for our life.

God has an amazing plan for YOUR life.

Rest in him.

Give him your pain

and watch his plan unfold.

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."